Riggins would have turned 9 today which is hard to believe. I still hear his sweet voice and cute laugh when he was 5 about to turn 6. I love and miss you so much Riggins. Happy 9th Birthday.
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Riggins would have turned 9 today which is hard to believe. I still hear his sweet voice and cute laugh when he was 5 about to turn 6. I love and miss you so much Riggins. Happy 9th Birthday.
I have my sister in law Keshia, niece Faith and nephew Ran on to talk about what July 25, 2021 was for each of us and what we were doing when we got the news. Talking about Trauma is hard. There is so much my family has not talked about still. The more you talk, the easier it becomes to find the right words. It takes effort, just like anything else in life. I'm so proud of my family in this episode. 3 years later it still hurts the same, maybe worse. The more time goes on the more I havent seen them. That is really difficult to accept. What I have learned so far is how much I really loved Kortni, Riggins, Franki, Race and Rider. Death has shown me that. I have learned that the gratitude, the joy, the love, the growth to be had from this horror is located in the same place as the pain. I ran from the pain for so long but that was also causing me to run away from Kortni and Riggins and Franki and Race and Rider. It still hurts, really bad. Continuing to talk about them and how I feel on the inside as allowed me to also find gratitude and love along with the pain now. I didnt have that at the beginning. Kortni, Riggins, Franki, Race, Rider. We love you and miss you so much. I never thought this would be our life and journey together. But it is, so what are we going to do about it?
"I remember when I turned 33" I am 6 months older than Kortni and so every time she had a birthday I would say "I remember when I turned..." I think she laughed hard the first time I did it and then rolled here eyes for the next 15 years when I did it haha. Where I am currently at in my grief journey is having the idea that Kortni and Riggins and Franki are somewhere. I am not sure what form or shape that is in but they are somewhere together and it is a struggle for them. Just like it is a struggle for Blue and I and the rest of our family. Kortni always found a way to help people and have a positive influence in the worst of circumstances. Even though Kortni is dealing with grief too I know she would be handling it well with a combo of grace and fury. She keeps me going, she gets me out of bed. She has always been a great leader and role model to me. I got to have some Kortni's friends on. (sorry to all the freinds we didnt have on haha kort would have felt bad) Thank you to her friends Shelbi and Madi who went to middle school with Kortni and played high school basketball with her. We had Kort's friend Aria on too who worked as a nurse with Kortni. My absolute favorite thing is hearing stories about Kortni, especially ones I have never heard of before. So thank you to Shelbi, Madi and Aria I felt Kortni's spirit so strongly talking to all of you at the same time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KORTNI! LOVE YOU FOREVER.
Got to talk with Conner Furu and what he has been through in his life. We both talked a lot about how sports has played a pivotal role in our lives. It was fun to relate with someone like him in that way. Conner is a man of his word and you get a sense of his integridy and accountability in this episode I think. One of my favorite quotes from him says; "The inferno of our grief is fueled by our refusal to acknowledge it, and extinguished by our attempts to undertand it." Grief at times does feel like an inferno and I think Conner is right. If you refuse to talk about it then it only feeds it and makes it bigger. Only by talking about it can you actually extinguish it. Thanks for showing up and being on our show Conner
June 29th is Franki's Birthday. I miss you so much Frank, can't believe you would be 5! June 29th is also Kortni and my 11th anniversary. I wrote you guys a letter and wanted to read it on here so we would always have it. I love and miss you both so much.
Jen and her Husband Chad were getting ready for a family vacation when Chad accidentely backed over their daughter Natalie in the driveway. Your life can and most likely will be shattered in an instant one day. What will remain is how you choose to handle it. We appreciate Jen having the courage to tell her story and share how she is handling her grief. Natalie, you sound amazing. Please go find Riggins and Franki and Rider if you haven't already. They would love to play and watch Frozen with you.
On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Jana White. Jana has been a high school psychology teacher and cross country coach for over 20 years. She has trained as a triathlete for most of her life and completed an ironman. Jana is a badass. In 2014 Jana lost her father and mother, Hubert Issel and Alana L. Uibel to a side by side accident. Jana's son Cooper and niece Evelyn were also involved in the accident. Jana worked as an EMT prior to the accident and talks to us about what she did to help save her son's life. Cooper suffered a traumatic brain injury from the accident and his recovery is an amazing story of turning trauma into triumph. Jana talks to us about helping her kids work through life's challenges and never giving up. Jana talks to us about the accident, her journey with grief, and the experience helping h er son Cooper with his recovery. Jana is a true hero, not just in that terrible moment with her family, but ever since then, her 90% is inspiring.
"You may not be responsible for getting knocked down. But you're certainly responsible for getting back up." -Wally Amos Seth Gehle was not responsible for his dad being in prison after trying to kill his mom, his mom being a drug addict and having addicts come and go as they pleased in and out of Seths house and bedroom. Seth found comfort in a adult friend who provided attention, food, shelter and safety. And then this adult "friend" ended up sexually molesting Seth over 300 times as well as raping him. Seth was not responsible for many things in his life, but it is his responsibility to get back up, and I'm not sure how he does it, but he does. Some parts of this episode are gross and will make you sick to your stomach but Seth deserves a place where he can talk about his trauma and all the details that come with it. Imagine being raped as a young boy, and no one wants to hear you talk about it. Not even the good guys want to hear you talk about it. Well, that's dumb. I am glad you felt comfortable sharing your story Seth. Love you man.
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Sammy and Andrew Hardman. On February 10, 2022 Sammy and Andrew lost their son Drayke Andrew Hardman to suicide. They talk about Drayke's love for basketball, his kind heart, the day of and the battle in the hospital while Drayke was in a coma, the Hardman's journey with grief, and what we can do to help kids who are being bullied.
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, we sit down with Amanda Hurst. Amanda lost her husband, Clever Hurst, to suicide on June 5th, 2020. Mason and Ryan talk with Amanda about the persistent taboo surrounding suicide and the need to recognize signs of depression in those we care about. They discuss the experience Amanda had being married to Cleve for 12 years, the nuances between grief and depression, and the crucial importance of reaching out for help if you're experiencing suicidal ideation.
On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast we talk to Tim and Becky Graff for the second time. To hear the full story about the day they lost their daughters you can go back and listen to episode 20. On May 11, 2020 Tim and Becky lost their two daughters Ellie and Kinsley to a flash flood while hiking through Little WIldhorse Canyon. During this episode we talk about what Tim and Becky are doing 4 years later and what they do to manage their grief.
On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk to Mitch Whetman. If you haven't heard Mitch's story go back and listen to episode 15 where we first talk about Mitch's sister Whitney. Whitney passed away from suicide on July 16, 2010. Mitch said in the first episode we recorded with him that when you lose a loved one, "they die in pieces." Since our last interview Mitch got married and had his first baby, and son, Nashton Bret Whetman. On this episode we talk about the difficulty of accepting the good things happening in your life when your loved ones aren't there to witness it. We talk about what we do to tap into the idea of We>Me and we talk about Mitch's spiritual journey while walking with grief.
On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we interview Ryan Stream. Ryan Stream is TEDx speaker, best selling author, Veteran, and entrepreneur. Ryan shares his story about growing up in poverty, battling drug addiction, going to war, and building his life up from rock bottom. Ryan talks about how life happens for you instead of life happening to you. He shares with us gifts that he’s been given that have impacted his life and people who have seen the potential within him when he couldn’t see it himself. Ryan’s a great dude. Happy to have met him and share time with him on this podcast.
On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk about how people aren't looking for you to fix their problems when something bad happens. They talk about how sometimes its about being emotionally supportive.
Sam and Mason discuss the Johari Window concept. The Johari Window is a framework for understanding conscious and unconscious bias that can help increase self-awareness and our understanding of others. We hope you like the episode.
Tyler Hall, the former CEO of Drivably talks to us about almost losing his wife to a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. In this episode we talk about how lifes challenges often times force us to reframe, to change, and to focus on what really matters.
Tim Drisdom dicusses his experineces with Racism, what it was like playing for legendary coach Rick Majerus at the University of Utah were Tim was apart of 3 conference championships and had a trip to the sweet 16. Tim also discusses his experience with losing loved ones and his faith in Christ which is fitting for easter weekend.
Sam and Mason answer questions sent in by listeners. Unfortanetly we only got through one question because the firtst question was "whats the purpose of life" and they went on a tangent for 40 minutes about it. We will get to more of the questions in our next episode. thanks for the questions and for all the support. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what your going to do about it.
Matt is masons therapist but more of a friend really. Matt is the man and we talked about a lot of cool stuff in this episode. -how to develope trust in a theraputic relationship -what is the goal of a therapist -the heros journey also: Ryan Garner wrote a tasty jam and i love it but Ryan was to worried to post it so I talked to his wife denise and we are posting his whole song. Hope you guys like it as much as i do. If you dont like it, then you make one. You write and do the music for your own entire song and then you upload it to spotify or apple music or whatever. go make your own.
Sam and Mason answer questions sent in by listeners. They did more than one question this time. Thank you for all the support we have gotten. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you're going to do about it.
We smiled back at death today. Had Wyatt Kline on our podcast an 18 year old senior from Roy High School in Northern Utah. Wyatt's mom took her own life when he was 15 years old. Wyatt was the one who found his mothers body. Wyatt has a 10ninety mindset and we were blown away with how strong he is. Part of the 10ninety message is we is greater than me. Mason's wife Kortni was a prime example of this in her day to day life. She genuily put her kids first and loved it. Motherhood in general comes with the territory of we is greater than me. Happy Mothers Day
Sam went to disneyland, so it was just mason and Brandon Burke who break down the parable of the mexican fisherman. "Wealth is the slave of a wise man. The master of a fool" -Seneca
Sam Josie is back! On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Sam discuss a story about monkeys in a cage trying to get a banana, zebras with targets on them, and the alleged true story of Job from The Bible.
Sam and Mason sit down with Preston Schooley and discuss how he turned down a safe, high paying job to pursue his dream as a tattoo artist. Preston also talks about his divorce and how life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you do about it. Preston did a lot of sweet tattoos for me that have a lot of meaning, and he crushed them all. Thanks Preston!
Sam and Mason discuss The Parable of the Raft which they heard from Noah Rashetta's podcast: Secular Buddhism. Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go" -Hermann Hesse